Tuesday, February 01, 2005

To Everything, turn, turn, turn...

So lately I feel as if my life's theme song should be Turn! Turn! Turn! by the Byrds...

Turn! Turn! Turn! (To Everything There Is a Season)
The Byrds
words adapted from the Book of Ecclesiastes by Pete Seeger
music by Pete Seeger
To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven
A time to be born, a time to die
A time to plant, a time to reap
A time to kill, a time to heal
A time to laugh, a time to weep
To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven
A time to build up, a time to break down
A time to dance, a time to mourn
A time to cast away stones
A time to gather stones together
To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven
A time of war, a time of peace
A time of love, a time of hate
A time you may embrace
A time to refrain from embracing
To everything - turn, turn, turn
There is a season - turn, turn, turn
And a time for every purpose under heaven
A time to gain, a time to lose
A time to rend, a time to sew
A time to love, a time to hate
A time of peace, I swear it's not too late!


And why do I feel that way, you may ask? Because it seems as if there is never any sure stability in life, you know? Changes and unexpected things happen all the time. And then there are the things that you plan for. Even though you plan them, they feel like a complete and total upheaval of your life and your existence.
Take, for example, the family change that we have been planning for a while, now. As of tomorrow, hubby will be Mr. Mom. He is staying home with the kids and I will be working. I suddenly have to learn how to ride the bus to and from work since we only have one vehicle. Then, I have to take care of the kids all by myself at night-- the only chance we have for family time anymore will be on the weekends. Hubby has to find a way to take care off all three kids every day for 10 hours a day and then go straight to work, all the while staying sane. And I will not have a car at night to go anywhere or do anything. I can't even drive hubby to work because to pick him up at 10pm I would have to get all of the kids out of bed, in their coats, in the car and off to pick him up. Then we would have to try to get them back into bed once they have gotten all excited to be going bye bye... well, you get the picture. It's going to be an extreme change for us and I'm just not ready for it.


*sigh*


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